4월이 되면 달라질까
Posted 2008/03/30 01:24, Filed under: 잡담이건 뭐 최근의 글은 재고의 여지없이 저질포스팅. 심지어 빈도도 한주에 한개. 할말이 없다.
최근에 추격자를 봤기에 그걸 좀 써볼까 했더니 정신차리고 보니 어느새 본지도 일주일. 기억조차 나지 않는다. 이 모든 상황의 원흉을 꼽자면 역시 평균 귀가시간 12시의 생활리듬이겠지.
지금 일기를 찾아봤는데, 3월들어서 술을 안마신 날이 5일, 6일, 8일, 14일, 15일, 23일, 24일.
어 생각보다 많네(...)
최근에는 드디어 놀다 놀다 '잔액이 부족합니다' 메시지와 함께 파산상태. 평소 있다가도 없고 없다가도 있는게 돈이라는 지론으로 사는 삶이지만 내리 한달을 놀다보니 지갑이 무슨 화수분도 아니고 점점 얇아지다 드디어 깨져버렸다. 통상 가용자금이라 말하는 모든 돈을 끌어다 쓰다보니 통장 세개가 전부 잔고가 1000원 미만. 당장 4월에 나갈 H모 은행 통장 유지수수료 넣는일도 벅차다. 성분 미안(...)
사실 딱 만원이 남아있었는데, 오늘 메일함을 열어보니 바글닷컴이 상주한 비누넷의 계정 만료일이 이달 말일이란다. 이돈으로 4월 10일까지 버텨야 하는데 대략 정신이 아득해지는 상황. 별수없이 입금을 하고나니 당장 내일부터 살아갈 길이 막막하다. 일요일이야 집에 붙어서 방바닥이나 박박 긁으면 된다지만 당장 월요일부터 끼니를 걱정해야 하는 상황. 그런주제에 4월에도 날짜까지 정한 약속이 꽤 된다. 앞날이 깜깜하다. 4월은 잔인한 달이다.
I. The Burial of the Dead
April is the cruelest month, breeding
Lilacs out of the dead land, mixing
Memory and desire, stirring
Dull roots with spring rain.
Winter kept us warm, covering
Earth in forgetful snow, feeding
A little life with dried tubers.
Summer surprised us, coming over the Starnbergersee
With a shower of rain; we stopped in the colonnade,
And went on in sunlight, into the Hofgarten,
And drank coffee, and talked for an hour.
Bin gar keine Russin, stamm' aus Litauen, echt deutsch.
And when we were children, staying at the arch-duke's,
My cousin's, he took me out on a sled,
And I was frightened. He said, Marie,
Marie, hold on tight. And down we went.
In the mountains, there you feel free.
I read, much of the night, and go south in the winter.
What are the roots that clutch, what branches grow
Out of this stony rubbish? Son of man,
You cannot say, or guess, for you know only
A heap of broken images, where the sun beats,
And the dead tree gives no shelter, the cricket no relief,
And the dry stone no sound of water. Only
There is shadow under this red rock,
(Come in under the shadow of this red rock),
And I will show you something different from either
Your shadow at morning striding behind you
Or you shadow at evening rising to meet you;
I will show you fear in a handful of dust.
Frisch weht der Wind
Der Heimat zu
Mein Irisch Kind
Wo weilest du?
'You gave me hyacinths first a year ago;
'They called me the hyacinth girl.'
-Yet when we came back, late, from the hyacinth garden,
Your arms full, and your hair wet, I could not
Speak, and my eyes failed, I was neither
Living nor dead, and I knew nothing,
Looking into the heart of light, the silence.
Oed' und leer das Meer.
Madame Sosostris, famous clairvoyante,
Had a bad cold, nevertheless
Is known to be the wisest woman in Europe,
With a wicked pack of cards. Here, said she,
Is your card, the drowned Phoenician Sailor,
(Those are pearls that were his eyes. Look!)
Here is Belladonna, the Lady of the Rocks,
The lady of situations.
Here is the man with three staves, and here the Wheel,
And here is the one-eyed merchant, and this card,
Which is blank, is something he carries on his back,
Which I am forbidden to see. I do not find
The Hanged Man. Fear death by water.
I see crowds of people, walking round in a ring.
Thank you. If you see dear Mrs. Equitone,
Tell her I bring the horoscope myself:
One must be so careful these days.
Unreal City,
Under the brown fog of a winter dawn,
A crowd flowed over London Bridge, so many,
I had not thought death had undone so many.
Sighs, short and infrequent, were exhaled,
And each man fixed his eyes before his feet.
Flowed up the hill and down King William Street,
To where Saint Mary Woolnoth kept the hours
With a dead sound on the final stroke of nine.
There I saw one I knew, and stopped him, crying: 'Stetson!
'You who were with me in the ships at Mylae!
'That corpse you planted last year in your garden,
'Has it begun to sprout? Will it bloom this year?
'Or has the sudden frost disturbed its bed?
'O keep the Dog far hence, that's friend to men,
'Or with his nails he'll dig it up again!
'You! Hypocrite lecteur!-mon senblable,-mon frere!'
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머야 이 영어는-_-
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저거 4월은 잔인한 달...하면서 시작되는 황무지 1부
흠 뭐 사실 별 상관은 없는데 그냥...
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이뭐....내가 어제 전화했을때도 학교였던걸로기억함...
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학교에서 계산기 만들던걸로 기억함
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개뻘글
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개뻘플
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..포스팅졈
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...그러게
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일단 제가 태어난 달이라는 것에서 매우 좋지 않은 달로 확정이군요. (응?)
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...제 생일도 4월이지 말입니다 ㄱ-
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왠 외계어가..
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비즈니스 후렌들리
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ㅈㅈ
포스팅졈 해봐-_--
몰러 왤케 삶이 피폐하니 할께없어 ㄱ-
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꽥!
뭐하고 지내닝-
꽥!
뻔하지 뭐 빈둥빈둥
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sjh양
뭐하고 지내닝
왜 같은단대인데 난 널 한번도 못본걸깡-
마...만남의 광장?!
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